can't think of a fitting photo sooo :3 webby time
10/9/23
UHHHH HAVEN'T UPDATED THIS IN A HOT MINUTE SORRY x( anyway I was gonna write about ducktales n just disney ducks in general here (cuz I love them so muhc) buuuuuut then i was posessed by this short story I had to write for a class so :P GONNA WRITE ABOUT WRITING NOW + HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT HEHE
OK SO like I mentioned I had to write a short story for an assinmnet right? :P so I went "hmmmmmm. I don't feel like making a whole new narrative and characters and world. oh bingo I'll just write about my ocs! :3" cause I love my characters so much and think about them all the time anyway and will take any excuse to talk about them so boom!!!! hitting MORE THAN 2 birds with one stone!!!!!!
but then I hit writing block when I was supposed to be writing it. cuz of course I did why would my brain be functional right x(. I scrapped and remade the plot of the short story like 3 times ack. I also ran into this weird thing where i was a HUGE perfectionist about my writing? I mean I'm kinda a perfectionist about my writing anyway (well besides the writing here this writing is crappy and rambly lol) but I was even more of a perfectionist this time :,3. I think it's cause the story was abiyt my ocs. I love my characters so much right!!! so this means I wanna depict them well and give them a good story!!!!! I think my short story turned out okay :P. I know I'm not the best writer ever but i think it's sweet :3.
BUT!! THATS NOT WHERE IT ENDS!!!! cause I walked into englsih class one day and the sub told us we'd be reading our stories. in front of the entire class :[. and there was no way my friend was letting me get out of that cuz she hates me ig /j. I was scared ofc, but I also figrued I shoudl get used to showing poeple my writing if I want to make a comic. so I went up in front of the class and stared at my story in silence for an entire minute cause I was too scared to read it x(. BUT THEN I JUST STARTED AND ACK IT WAS SOS CARY :(. it wasn't as bad once I just started reading the dang thing but it was still pretty embarassing :P. I'm just not used to opening myself up like that!!! i hold my characters SO CLOSE to my heart and I have for so long that it's weird to tell a whole group of people about them. i didn't really see their faces while I was reading :P. they probably thougt I'm cringe but thats ok I don't really care :3.
now I have to submit the story cause it's due today and AGH I DONT WANNA :(. I don't wanna show my stupid little story to MORE people!! its very scary for no reason lol. its weird being genuine and cringe in a writing assignemnt for school!!!!! I meeeeeean actually I think I'd rather have my be genuine and cringe than just boring and bland. idk I did that once and it just wasn't any fun xP. I had fun with this short story thogugh!!!! so yipee!!!! I got to think about how much I love friendship and creating and love!!!! also I made illustrations hehe. I think I'll put that story somewhere on my website once I edit it a teeeeeensy bit more. making myself more used to showing poeple my writing hehe... >:3
or uh. I say that like mroe than 4 people ever look at this website lol. oh well it's nice that way :3 less scary. I'll update this if anything happens pertaining to this short story after I submit it lol
signing off for now,
- squirrel! :3
update 10/11: found out yesterday the teacher didn't give any instraucions to share our stories xP. the sub just decided he wanted to do that I guess????? it was an expereince for sure. man x(